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A little Wayne's World for those of you who don't get the reference. Still in Orlando, which has gotten better but its still not anywhere I want to be. Missing Marley has its ups and downs, going to visit her 2 weeks ago made last week kinda hell but I wouldn't trade the experience for anything in the world. Being with her makes my life have a meaning and a purpose beyond myself. Looking at a bunch of theatres around the country lately, gearing up for January when I have to go on the mad hunt for jobs. Almost could have made a Duran Duran reference there, oh well. I wish there was something more exciting going on right now, but alas, my life is really not that awesome..... yet. So sit back, relax, and keep reading and eventually, someday, hopefully, something exciting will happen. 

-Phill

So... There's This Girl...

I haven't really come out and talked about this yet. So as I've mentioned a few times in this blog, Marley is a huge part of my life. She's my girlfriend. The love of my life. My Everything. I mentioned her being my best friend before, she still is. Everyday I find that I love her more and more and that me missing her and her missing me only means that there's something there worth fighting for, and thats just what I"ll do. 12 hours and 700+ miles will not break me. I've never felt this connected to someone before and when I look into her eyes... I melt. 

I went into this summer pretty rough and pretty down. I didn't expect to find friends let alone a woman I've been waiting my entire life for. And I didn't do anything of the usual Phill standards of excellence, or rather idiocy. I was just myself, and it was enough. I never envisioned myself as someone who would even want to plan a future with someone anymore... but with her it comes easy. I look at her and I know, I want that future. I want her. I am so thankful for her. She makes me laugh. I don't ever remembering actually laughing as much as I do with her. I genuinely smile and enjoy myself. So thank you, God; thank you, New Harmony, Inidiana; Thank you SETC. Thank you for the greatest thing I have ever had in my life.

So I've been in Orlando for a month...

And the only thing I know for sure is when this contract is over, I want out of this place. I mean its nice and sunny and great to spend your vacations in, but its so far away form the people I call home. Yes I said people, I technically don't have a place to call home. I opened "Kiss Me, Kate" tonight and besides the fact that I pretty much hate musicals, I'm not as happy doing this without people I care about. Sure the people here are fun and cool, but I barely know them and they don't know me at all. Another part of it is that I want my next step in life; a home, a family, a permanent job or at least a permanent city to keep working in. I always preach doing this for the art, that its the art I'm in it for. I'm a hypocrite. I do it because for 2 to 3 hours I'm respected and heard. I do it because it's something I'm good at and I couldn't really find anything better. I miss have certain people by my side when i do it here. I miss Marley. More than i thought missing someone was possible. but I gotta go. peace.