Vacation

I'm in Chantilly, VA with Marley and it's the most amazing feeling in the world to be able to hold her. I love her. The end.

Christmas Already?!

So its Christmas. I'm in Orlando for it again this year. Working another lame ass christmas show thats a parody of another christmas show. I'm glad I have career goals now or this would be aweful. My parents are here again, which is actually really nice cuz I never see them anymore, which I guess is part of growing up. I see marley in less than a week, 4 months is a real long fucking time to go without seeing someone you love passionate and deeply. I'm so excited to see her and be able to hold her and look her in the eyes! Back to Career Goals. 2 Years ago I left school for the final time with a goal of becoming the Wardrobe Supervisor at a regional Equity Theatre. Well that's done and I'm glad to have moved on to a new goal. Spending the rest of my life with Marley and being a full time staff member of Wardrobe at a major opera company. I know the first one is either obvious or makes you vomit but whatever. The company goes into the Shakespeare Rep next month and I'll be spending at least 3 weeks in the costume shop building stuff...needless to say I'm not excited. It's been a while since I got my hands dirty making things. Well its getting alte and I should sleep! Goodnight!

People to talk to? Aquaintances? Friends????

If you are anyone who actually knows me, you know its hard for me to do the first of those three nevermind moving on to steps 2 and 3. I find myself lately starting to move on to step 2 and even on a couple occasions move to 3. I'm also finding I'm not alone in my artistic integrity. That maybe dressing up a fucking cat into a fucking karate outfit isn't the best thing to be doing, even if we are in a recession! Ok Soap box gone, but really I thought I was sort of alone in my high standards and expectations of what this art form should be and that my settling for now is definitely a for now. I just wanted to share and shout out to Marley, cuz she's working a the John F. Kennedy Center this week in DC and that fucking awesome.

Long DIstance Blues

The distance between us
Measure by the rate of speed
Divided by time
Equals too much math for my heart
Hours on the phone
Reoccurring fights that never end
I am tired of seeing your face
Not being able to touch it
Not being able to kiss it
Not being able to feel your warm breath
Intertwine with mine
As we lay holding each other in bed
The way your hand fits in mine perfectly
The peach scent of your body
And the intoxicating taste of your lips
Make me dizzy and drunk off you
Every fiber in my being
Feels the pull and tug
The line connecting my heart to yours
Four states
Eight hundred miles
Long distance is a curse word
A state of mind I can't escape
The ghost of your presence
Lingers in my sheets
I reach out for empty space
My arm curling around
Air that resembles you
I am sleepless in your imaginary arms
Thanking god for the Apple company
Putting cameras in computers
The pixelated, flat version of you
Does not compare
To the softness of your skin
The voluptuous curves of your body
I want an end to this torment
This limitless cage on my heart
I hate this, I love you
I hate this, I love you
I love you, I love you
I hate this...

Sharing is Caring

This is a shot of the Santa Fe Opera where I worked this summer. This what I looked at every day walking into work. How could you not fall in love? The more research and time and effort I'm investing into this having a "goal" thing, the more I remember how good of a place it is to work. Take away the amazing artists you work with and the fun people surrounding you there, just the environment, the magic of being on top of a desert. Perfecting and honing your craft. It's the reason I do this. Not for the money, not for the glory; but for the magic and the art. Santa Fe Opera reminded me of that.

Goals?

So here's a new thing for me. Career Goals. I want to work wardrobe in opera. More specifically a Wardrobe Supervisor. More specifically, in Santa Fe and Chicago. I've finally sorted through my emotions and thoughts from my summer experience and have decided that career wise, this is what I want to go for. Those of you reading may know me as someone who never really has had goals beyond living and loving. Having fun and surrounding myself with good people are also up there. So far I've achieved all those goals and I think it's time for me to put my big boy pants on and go out into this world and....idk do my thing. I know this wont be easy. There's unions, degrees, and a million other things standing in my way and even if I just get to work in this field in these places then fine, so be it. I'm not scared of this anymore, I'm not afraid to fall. I have friends, family, and a woman who loves me who will help me and stand by me.

A Little Poetry... Don't Judge Me

Muscles in my Lips

Muscles in my lips

Push the air from my lungs

Filling my horn

Tenderly caressing each note

Holding you in the playing position

Muscles in my lips

Firmly plant kisses

Down the softness of your neck

Holding my horn high

Gliding fingers

Down the cool, metal neck

Caressing each of your legs

Squeezing your thigh

Pushing the warmth from my fingertips

Firmly planting melodies

Squeezing out high notes

Agile fingers

Dance lightly on valves

The exhale of elation

The sweat trickles down

Agile fingers

Dance lightly across your chest

The exhale of thunder, joyous sound

Making love to the music

Making love to you

Adrenaline pumps through my veins

Every move natural

Every move sensual

Faster and harder

Smooth and precise

Changes in rhythm

Picking up pace

Moving together as one

My body and yours

My body and the horn

The song ends

The music stops

The night air breathes in unison

With you, me, and the horn

Your glow fading

The horn stands lifeless

Cold and still

Falling asleep in your embrace

Muscles in my lips

Push air

Plant kisses

Muscles in my lips

Make music

Make love

ANother Opening, ANother Show...

So Tomorrow I open "Big Bang, The Musical" here in Orlando and it marks my return as Wardrobe Supervisor in the professional realm of theatre. I'm excited yet I feel less accomplished. Whatever. I'm sure its the missing Marley thats affecting me. I'm not myself still. I've been downloading music to make myself better. I recommend the "Street Dogs" for some local Boston Flavor. I HATE Glee. Hate. TV Shows start up soon and I'm excited.ok well I'm done. Phill.

Oh the Times They are a Changing....

So awesome news I'm seeing Bob Dylan on Sunday with Willie Nelson and John Mellencamp. (Cougar) for those who know him by that. I've opened up a professional e-mail account. Phill.Giggey@gmail.com. Well the Santa Fe Opera has been a ridiculously awesome summer. Last weekend was the last opening for the summer. 5 shows in 2 months. And not just regular shows, 5 fucking operas. I'm finding I love opera and would love to work in it again. It's been talk "around the water cooler" that I'll be asked back again as a staff wardrobe person here next summer. So supper exciting. I LOVE MARLEY, btw. She has been amazing all summer long, sending cards and a pocket watch,. I couldn't ask for a better best friend or girlfriend. Well thats all the news for now. Bye.

Summer Adventure 09

Well, I guess I've started out on my summer adventure for this year. Although it seems less of an adventure this year. Instead of going somewhere with reckless abandon and nothing to think about but feeding myself and having a good time, I find myself thinking about Marley, and how I can turn this summer opportunity into a step towards being with her permanently. I find myself not even wanting to be on the road and driving, unless its driving to Marley. Santa Fe is gonna be awesome, I know cuz it'll be a new experience and good work. I just feel different than I'm used to, and I know its a good thing. I'm growing up, I guess, and maybe its time to stop these adventures and my constant traveling and never being somewhere longer than 8 months. I love Marley and I love my work and I'm gonna find a way to make both work out. Well I'm in Kansas, at my parents now, and in 2 weeks I'll be in Santa Fe, New Mexico, but I'm really looking forward to being in Richmond, Virginia in September.

Vanna White just told me Sharks never run out of teeth

Marley was here last week. Best week in Orlando. Ever. I got a job at the Santa Fe Opera for the summer. Woot. 

Been a Long time since I Rock 'n' Rolled....

So its been a while, I was basically waiting for the "millions" of exciting things I do to pile up to make a good post. Christmas happened. My parents came down and we had christmas in Florida. That wasn't the exciting part. After we closed Trial, I drove directly to Marley, stopping only for gas. I spent the best 9 days of the last 5 years of my life. I rang in the new year with the love of my life and it feels like my life is actually going somewhere. Meeting Marley has become the greatest thing to ever happen to me. She believes in me so I believe in me, She loves me, and suddenly I don't think i"m such a bad guy. Long distance is horrible and I don't recommend it to anyone unless it's worth it. And not just the happy, love-sick puppy worth it. Blood, sweat, and tears worth it. I love her. Also, my career doesn't look so bad either. Summer positions are looking good and Denise, my boss, wants to hire me full time next year as a Wardrobe Staff Personnel. Hourly wages and Health Insurance, Huzzah! Well, thats pretty much it. My life is going well. I have a woman who loves me and a job that doesn't suck.

Phill